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Oversized Sweaters, Lace, and some Real Talk
As the naturally guarded type of person I am it has always been difficult for me to talk about "real issues". I don't dig deep personally on here mainly because I know many of you skim the words and just look at the pictures, but mostly because if I write about it, it makes my insecurities real. I started this blog as a way of self exploration, a way to get to know myself, and what I am interested in. Along the way I have learned so much about who I am, things I like and don't like. As my brother began taking these pictures on Saturday, I immediately started to panic. I made him show me some of the photos, and the feeling that resulted from it was one that most of us girls now a little too well. I was confronted with the fact that I have gained some weight in the past year and like a moth sucked into the flame I started to look through old pictures of myself longing for the "skinnier" days (where in fact I still thought I was fat). Everyday I am bombarded by images of what society considers beautiful, skinny, and talented on instagram. blogs, etc, and I will say as secure as I am in myself it's hard to ignore some of the thoughts that creep into my head. To be honest, I don't even know where I am going with this, other than to tell all of you that you are not alone. We all have rough days, where we look at the mirror and don't like what is looking back at us. I have learned in life that feeling beautiful is an inside job, no one can do it for you. There are always areas to improve in, and being healthy is important, but if you feel like you will fix all of your insecurities by getting that nose job, by starving yourself, by constantly depriving yourself from a piece of cake, all you'll find at the end of that road is that you are still insecure. Beauty is one of the oldest facades, because the reality is, most of the time its fake. Today, despite it all, I am choosing to love myself just the way I am, insecurities and all.